I have always wondered how it feels like to die, to no longer have a beating heart. Sometimes death can feel like a relief from the painful and devastating reality of life. Other times death can feel like a horrible nightmare that could be the ending of everything that matters. Thinking of dying and staring death in the eye I have learned are two very different things. However, if there is one thing I am sure of is that I would go to my grave with open arms if you wait for me in heaven.